basic tenets of Monica-ism

the following is excerpted from my correspondence with someone who remains dear to my heart.....it came out nicely, i always thought, and so i kept it....my dear friend began to fear he'd get in trouble for continued association with the Likes of Me....he quit replying, which sucked the wind from my sails a bit; left me wondering about the state of humanity if all male-female associations MUST be seen as tawdry and cheap somehow.....but i'm a very patient girl, and i truly care for my friend, so i'm not about to second-guess his assessment of the situation by revealing his identity herein. i doubt very highly he'll ever know i posted this, anyway, but i try to respect others' wishes......but for the sake of my pride: I DID NOT, NOR DID I PLAN TO/WISH TO/HOPE TO JUMP HIS BONES. there, are we happy now?!! :)

Basic Tenets of Monica-ism.... 1. There is a whole shitload of stuff out there which we teenie-weenie humans can neither Know nor Percieve. We got no idea--can't begin to imagine all the stuff we'll never know, man. 2. Linear Time is an illusion which allows us all to function, but time doesn't exist objectively as we know it--what really IS goin on?? well, refer to #1. 3. The Workings of One's Brain are tantamount to a separate, Real Plane of Existence. 3A. What we consider to be Everyday Life interacting in the world is actually Everyday Life, as processed and presented within each individual's unique and separate Thought-Universe. 3B. The Netting which ties us to both the world and eachother can be said to exist within both these worlds simultaneously. Its thread comes in various forms, from Love to Learning to Objective Observation and beyond....the wider/more-diverse the net, the larger the inner universe, but the "net" itself is real. 4. Life is a naturally-self-balancing equasion, in all its aspects... (Unfortunately the Universal Equation is so large we can barely see any of it, let alone fathom its true nature....so we are left scraping up teasing "crumbs" of Clues which point to some totally-unimaginable HUGE Unity which we can only have a "feeling" is Really Real--and yet, if the Universal Equasion were a "problem", i'd bet anything that the True Solution would appear to be Deceptively Simple in its entirety--that's the thing with Truth and Growth--to know/see the thing in parts, it's Devilishly Complex, but to Understand and Comprehend the Whole, the Greater Picture, why it makes sense, somehow.) 5. The energy of our inner world is sometimes manifested in the outer world.... (in a myriad of different ways. Some are obvious: the person who is unhappy, morose, fat and alcoholic, for example.....Some can be more subtle: the person who always feels there's good in the world seems to get thru life alright, somehow....i guess "like brings like" eh?) 6. There is something within each living thing which is only borrowed and shall be recalled to the Great Universal Library upon its death.... (call this one a fervent hope. i hope so strongly that it hurts, blah!) Now, havin said all that, lemme tell ya a little Secret: i don't believe in ghosts, spirits, Squeegie Boards, Tarot Cards and Heebie-Geebies either...not as most Palm and Tea readers would explain em....i think ALL the biblical explanations of "goodenevil" crucifixes and holy water type crap are just that. but because i do believe people actually really see the stuff which popular myth labels Haunts, it's just quicker and easier to say "i believe in ghosts" than it is to say"well, i believe that people really see these things and that they are not merely some Defective Brain Functioning on their part but i think that rather than Poor Wayward Wandering Souls these phenomena are merely breaches in our Essentially-Flawed Human Perception of a Time-Space Continuum given Understandable Representation by our Brains" etc, every time anyone asks....know what i mean, now? as for Psychics Sooth-Sayers and the like, well, i don't wanna sound like i'm insulting Lady X or any of your friends, so please understand i would never speak about such things with personal connotations, but, well, i have never actually met a person claiming to be "psychic" who i felt like really Knew what was goin on.....the people i have met kinda dealt in trivializations.....i swear, this one lady wouldn't have known something Metaphysical if it pinched her pendulous posterior in passing.....but as i said, i am absolutely NOT sitting here assuming, passing personal judgment on You and Yours based on past "bad-apple" experiences of Mine....just a little whispered wise-ass aside, is all.... and when it comes to Interpersonal Connections, well, i feel like there's more sometimes than rational explanation's "coincidence" theory covers.....what is it? ah, Mystery, aint it a funny thing.....just when you think you've got your life all Neatly Ordered Up, Laid Out and Sorted Properly, WHEE!!, In Comes A FastBall! "Ponder THIS, Earth-Boy!" snickers Life, and the best any of us can do is duck, sneakin a peek from between face-shielding fingers as it slices wind overhead.....after it's gone, maybe you try to picture it in your mind's eye--"what the fuck WAS that?? was it even really ever here?" hm, or maybe it's just me....at any rate, it seems like there's always gonna be somethin which keeps me wonderin on the Interpersonal front, whether or not i actually ever went into the world desirous of finding such things.... and as for your dream, well that last little bit makes more sense, now--the feeling of isolation which comes with your situation, the fact that most people's minds are not broad enough to hold the information you might like to share, that they would look upon you unbelieving if you even tried to tell em the truth....not being listened to, once again.....hmm....also in a general way this relates to the life-experience of any highly-intelligent person who has accumulated a broad range of awareness across humanity's spectrum....being brilliant in multiple areas of intelligence is isolating, huh??! [Alter Egos: HAAAH!(howling laughter, rolling on floor) Me: cmon guys! i'm not as dumb as all that, yknow! Alter Egos: (stifled giggling, unrestrained hoots break thru) Me: know what, guys? if i WASNT so goddamned smart, y'all wouldn't even EXIST to Infernally Pester me in the first place, so how bout ya SHUT the FUCK up. Alter Egos: silence, worried looks....back to laughing again]
ooops, those losers--always crackin up at my claims to Giftedness....i tell ya....but geez, i just wrote a Jane Austin Novel, length-wise at least....hopefully this piece was more Interesting for you than Miss Austin was for me(though it WAS awhile ago, maybe now i wouldn't feel the need to skip every third page in pursuit of other more-interesting activities like i did back In The Day....hmm) happy weekend, Mister R, dear!
ps-- i've had PLenty of Visionary-Interpretational Practice--don't forget, i devoted a good chunk of my life to ingesting psychedelic substances in as large quantities as i could muster up, passin em out to my friends....wandering around boston after dark, escorting a small Acid Tour Group was my vocation, playing shepherd-by-default(virtue of still bein stuck inside my brain after everyone else had left) ....nursed all sorts of different folks thru weird, initially-frightening apparitions etc...."no! don't stab the cat, we're NOT already dead here, man, put down the knife, gimme a hug, dude!" yknow..... best of luck amongst the dogs and devils at Pickerel School, my friend...don't get caught with yer nose in a comic book or a girlie mag when you SHOULD be readin the Handbook or somethin...ha, haha